Issues began when his mother passed away. The house began having a depressing aura and his father struggled to meet his kid's emotional needs and also began having trouble maintaining the house financially as the loss deeply affected him and couldn't do as well in his job. He had a hard time suddenly became the only support. Bb began feeling neglected or abandoned due to this but at the same time, he understood well that his father was doing what he possibly could in this situation so he still loved him and admired him despite all.
This big change in his family coincided with him becoming a teenager, so his life outside his house change a lot as well which amplified the situation.
Suddenly friends changed, people were more distant. He felt he didn't fit in with his friends anymore, as he didn't have the same interests as them. He wasn't very interested in dating, or having nights out and he definitely wasn't "popular". Still, he had some friends he could play videogames with, which he really liked. So in school, he mostly went under the radar.
He...wasn't exactly unhappy, but he definitely felt unfulfilled. He told himself he admired his father so he would study naval engineering just like him once he graduated high school, but, was it really because he admired his father or was he just looking for any excuse to have a goal that would sound passionate?
He felt he lacked passion, and mostly, personality. Every year it was more prominent this feeling of not having a "self" and it was like there was nothing to do about it. Aside from playing videogames and doing the minimum school work, there was nothing he felt he wanted to do. Sometimes he blamed life, "why isn't just existing enough...?". He desperately wanted a sense of purpose, from anything, or anyone.
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"If you're lonely, we can hang out near the river, or the park..."
When he first Al pherg he definitely got a strange vibe but simply thought that was because they were a bit of an unusual weirdo and that's all. Still, he taken by surprise by how nice and empathetic they could be, specifically, how attentively they listened. Showing vulnerability with any of his friends was unthinkable, but with Al pherg, he felt it was so easy because he felt like they also really wanted to know about him. Talking about videogames, worries of the future, things that happened at school, how he didn't wanted to do that homework...
And so, every day after school, even if he would never personally seek out Al pherg, he would be hoping to find them there.
Often times Bb liked to find a way to oppose or irk Al pherg at random, as a way to get their attention or a response, and at first, they were quite bothered by this but it didn't took to long for them to realize he was just playing around and these "fights" weren't nothing deep at all, and even began to find them amusing and played along as a funny part of their relationship.
Bb decided he would see what he couldn't see in himself in Al pherg, that is, a person with personality and passion. However that didn't meant resentment for him, not even jealousy. Instead, this relationship gave him the sense of self he wanted and that feeling of incompleteness was somehow gone by this new daily life.
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As they began getting closer Bb did notice that it was strange how little Al pherg spoke about themselves, he felt as they were purposefully hiding things but tried to brush it off as his imagination and told himself they were simply reserved. He, however, felt more and more comfortable, and so he eventually opened up about what happened with his mother. As he told Al pherg, he remembered something that he simply repressed because he didn't thought much of it, and that was that before his mother's death, he had recurring and strange dreams of her. He also said, that now that he thinks about it, he often has very bad stomach aches, head aches and even fevers right before something bad happens, but it was just weird coincidences.
Al pherg's response was unexpected. Their eyes lit up, full of innocence, as they said that they always knew he was a psychic, because they're one as well.
Bb was taken back by this, on one side, he felt he should be angry, it was not the moment for jokes, and on the other, he really didn't feel like Al pherg was joking. So he simply said
"uh okay...".
This was definitely not the answer he hoped for, while he simply wanted to talk about it to talk about with someone, he was also, deep down, really hoping to be comforted...
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Soon Bb would began to "understand", as this was the beginning of Al pherg also opening up, but as someone who was delusional. He was surprised at first but was very quick to accept it. Honestly, Bb had a very simple understanding of mental illnesses, so he didn't really saw a threat in any of this. Because sure, they were saying that they're a psychic and weird things like that, but he simply thought there wasn't any danger to it as it's not like they were saying they want to kill people or anything of the sort.
But most importantly, he thought that being a good friend to them was accepting them as they were- And also, the darker side of his brain thought that it was surely something people would normally judge, so if he accepts such strange part of them, that would sure mean they would never want to leave him, because they would simply feel so happy and accepted with him. They would be best friends forever and this daily life would go on forever!
No matter how you put it, for him it was the best course of action ever to accept this and everyone won.
So everyday after school, he would go up to them, let them ramble about their delusions just to say "Oh~? Is that so~? ♥" (NOTREALLYiamsosorryiwokeupat6amandicantseemtofinishthis, but you get the idea)
Of course, Al pherg felt happier than ever in the relationship, as they had someone who wasn't judging them and they could basically told him anything. Thus, they both accepted eachother deeply, a bond that truly wouldn't be broken and...
As stated before bb didn't really understand that while, sure, Al pherg was happy being accepted, at the same time there was a lot of pain behind this, and it's something that, while it shouldn't be judged, it should be treated as while maybe at the time is manageable it can quickly become dangerous.
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And so, as it might be not been so obvious from the perspective of someone who's not educated on this, it did reach a point where it got dangerous.
Al pherg's delusions got stronger and more aggressive. Bb tried his best to manage everything but simply couldn't, the whole "acceptance" plan was failing badly enough for Al pherg to cut him off in paranoid episode.
For a long time Bb had to idea where they went, and of course he was highly worried but also confused as he had no idea what was happening to them.
Thats when Bb has a dream about Al pherg saying goodbye and it was the last time. He woke up in a high fever, he could barely think but was conscious enough to grab his bike and go to where he thought Al pherg was. There he found them, and told them he was so worried and he would take them home, that he would do everything to help them go back to normal. He was barely conscious from the fever and so he didn't remember much else.
He woke up the next day in his bedroom, very late, in a very uncomfortable position, yet, he felt happy. Because he thought that last night, he had found Al pherg and he made sure to sent them home.
In a small town, it was very quick for him to receive the news of the suicide.
It was though news, but also, it was hard to rule what happened as a coincidence. This is when Bb starts to consider that maybe, they were right, and also this is the birth of the "purpose" he wanted in his life
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